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There is a little mystery in my house that I can't quite figure out. It's just something unusual that has been picking at my brain. I thought I would share this mystery in case by chance someone can figure it out for me. The other day when I was changing Alex and looking out his window I noticed a purple splatter on it. My first thought was, "Oh dear, what has he gotten into this time." It would not have been the first occurrence of Alex smearing something on his window. We have had a lotion incident as well as a baby powder blow out. I grabbed a cloth to wipe the mess off and came to the realization that the splatter is actually on the outside of his window. This has set my mind in motion and for the life of me I can't figure out what it is or how it got there. Alex's window is on the second story and looks out over the roof of the living room that extends past the house. So if it was someone that had thrown something at the house they would have ha...

It's been a while since I have done a post about the changes in my self esteem battle. I thought it would be good to give a little update. It seems I'm doing pretty good actually. My confidence has been boosted and I have started to come to terms with some of the things that caused me problems in the past. I have actually been able to come to grips with the concept that a lot of the damaging things that have happened were really not my fault and I am making the effort to not claim them as my responsibility. Some times it's more difficult to do this than others but step by step I'm getting there. When I have a negative thought that relates to something that has hurt me I try to take a second to recognize that relationship and then dismiss the insult to myself. This is easier to do about my physical self than myself personally. Where as before most of my negative outlook was based on my physical appearance now my negativity is directed towards my personality. I r...

Finances are such a sticky subject! How much someone makes is by no means an indication of their financial stability. This is one of the reasons that I find watching the show Till Debt Do Us Part so much. It makes me feel very responsible. We met with a financial planner last week to take a look at how we are headed financially and things are okay but it's always a tricky balancing act to keep your head above water. It's no wonder to me that so many couples split up over financial problems. We hear quite often how we are some of the richest people in the world just by virtue of living in an affluent country. Though this is true it still doesn't mean that we can live outside our means. That can be a huge temptation in a society such as ours. Though my husband and I have pretty similar stances on spending and we both try to be as thrifty as possible that doesn't mean that we are all set. I am, after all, a stay at home mom and my husbands work was quite slow this...

I have been trying to think of an appropriate goal for the next 90 days. During the next 90 days however, there are a few things that are up in the air. One thing is the appointment I have with a specialist about the possibility of having a breast reduction. There is potential that I could have surgery some time in the foreseeable future. This has also shifted some of my focus towards my posture. Since I know that having surgery will not automatically fix my posture and cause the hunch in my back to disappear I made an appointment with a chiropractor. I think this has made my goal a little clearer. When I had my first appointment x-rays were done and from looking at those and a profile picture I have been able to see what's causing the problems with my back. It seems the base of my spine curves in to much and between my shoulders and the bottom of my neck curve out to much. Most notably there is one vertebrae that is starting to stick out quite far, hence the...

I've started this blog entry about 4 times now and scrapped it. I'm just not sure of the right way to voice the frustration I'm feeling or the emotions I'm experiencing. I've taken a few knocks lately and though I understand completely the reasons behind the decisions some people have made it's still difficult to not take those decisions personally. Each time I think I am moving on and coming to grips with a setback a new situation will bring me right back to the last problem. I'm feeling very disconnected lately, and frankly a little lonely. Being involved in direct sale companies hasn't created this problem or made it any worse however, it does very quickly bring to light my lack of a friend network. I feel I'm making myself very vulnerable right now but I suppose it can't make my situation worse. From the outside people might not realize this about me since I have a lot of acquaintances but recently I just feel that I'm hungering for...

Today I am making a request of all of you. My cousin needs prayer. His name is Mark Lewis, he is married with 2 beautiful little guys and he has recently been diagnosed with a very severe and aggressive type of cancer called angio-sarcoma. He has had some surgery and is undergoing aggressive treatment but he and his family could really use a huge heaping helping of prayer. Though this is an aggressive form of cancer I have seen miracles before and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that miracles are possible. I have seen them! So please remember him and his family in prayer. Pray for strength, comfort, faith, peace, healing, and enormous blessings to be poured out on them. I will be attending a fund raiser for him this coming Saturday the 16th. They could also use a financial blessing to make the burden of his time in treatment easier to bear. Prayer for a good turn out and a financial blessing for them would be appreciated as well. Thank you in advance for remembering Mark a...

There have been a few setbacks I've experienced lately that have frustrated me. When I get frustrated the first thing to go is sleep. I just can't seem to turn my brain off. Even if I'm not worried I'm still going over the outcome of every choice and attempting to pick a direction that will lead to the best results. Apparently my body and brain thing the best time for doing this is 3am. This means the frustration is followed by too little sleep and if I'm not careful I start feeling grumpy and depressed. Since I am aware of this possible outcome I am now able to head it off at the pass. Lately I am better equipped to handle sleeplessness and frustration but one can never be to careful. I have heard that a good "treatment" for depression is to keep a gratitude journal. This seems fitting since this weekend is Thanksgiving. So today I am going to make a list of some of the things I'm thankful for. I would encourage you all to do the same. I w...

I was hoping to book a massage with my massage therapist a few weeks ago and called her up to discover some bad news. It seems she has had a really difficult summer. Back in march she was having problems with her arm and through some testing they discovered a tumor. They did a few more simple tests over the next few months never really figuring out anything except that the tumor that was 3 cm in March was 7 cm in July. That same month she was on vacation and swatted a fly only to break her arm! There is a 7 inch fracture in her arm that does not seem to be healing because of the tumor. Not only that but she hasn't even had a biopsy yet. She has another appointment scheduled this week and she is understandably concerned. An arm is a very unfortunate place for a massage therapist to have a tumor, not that there is a good spot to have one. She is a very active, determined and strong woman though and this has really damaged her spirit. Not only is she unable to continue much ...

Today is the 10 year anniversary of the day I met my husband. I thought it would be interesting to let people know how we met. I would say it's a rather unusual way for a christian couple to have met. I was attending Conestoga College for Radio and Television Broadcasting and it was a rather wild bunch. One Friday night a few of us decided we were going to go out dancing at the Rev in Waterloo. Since I had a car I acted as chauffeur/DD a lot of the time. Also since we were mostly broke we always wanted to arrive anywhere before cover. After work I picked up Juli and Mark and headed back to my place to get ready. By this time I had to get ready very quickly and while I showered and did my makeup, Mark picked my outfit. I threw it on and we dashed up to the Rev just in time to get in for free. Just inside the door while everyone waited in line for the bank machine I noticed Dean, a friend from another year in our program. He was there with friends from high school celebrati...