The Year of Surgery
It's been a really long time since my last post and there is a very unusual reason for that. It's because it's winter. Our computer is in the basement and it's cold down here! I haven't been coming downstairs to use the computer hardly at all either since my father gave us a tablet that he bought but wasn't using. Since he gave us that I pretty much have been doing all my internet stuff upstairs...where it's warmer.
It is a new year though now so I thought what better time than now to get back into the swing of things. This is the time of year where people tend to both reflect on the past and dream of the future. I am not immune to these musings myself. I have been doing some reflecting on this last year and I assume that like everyone else, there were some tough times and some good times. I had a few pretty rough patches and issues that I worked through emotionally this year. Some really good progress was made but a lot of it came at a cost. One of the most difficult things I did this year was actually writing a letter of forgiveness to someone that had hurt me. The letter was received.... alright. There really wasn't much that came from them after receiving it but I was surprised at the results I saw in my own life just from the act of writing, releasing and sending it. It has made a big difference in my confidence with myself and my esteem. I also feel less angry and resentful, not only towards that person but in general. I would encourage you to maybe do the same in your own life. If there is someone that has hurt you and the damage cause by that is holding you back all that keeping that anger inside is doing is keeping you from reaching your full potential. Staying angry with them will only allow them to continue to hurt you and give them power over you. That was one big thing that happened with me emotionally.
Physically there was changes with me as well. I had 2 surgeries this year. The first was the breast reduction. That made a big difference in my posture, confidence and pain level. It was difficult as well but very much worth it. Even though it's been less than a year since I had it done it feels like this is always who I was meant to be. I feel far more comfortable in my own skin than I ever did before.
The second surgery was a septoplasty. That was done to straighten the wall between my sinuses to allow better air flow. Though I am still healing from that one and I have also been sick (stuffed up) I have noticed a big difference in the amount of air that can pass through my nose. This should make a big difference with my snoring and I am hopeful that I will be able to breath better at night and consequently sleep better. That will still remain to be seen. The surgery was more difficult and painful than I expected. With going through the reduction first I sort of expected this surgery to be a breeze and I think that set me up for disappointment. The packing was rather large and needed to stay in for 48 hours. That made it impossible for my sinuses to drain anywhere but out my eyes and down my throat. This made me physically ill....a lot and also caused my eyes to weep constantly. It was difficult to even keep them open. Hopefully down the road I will look back on it and say it was worth it but right now I feel it's still too fresh to really understand how it will effect my life.
There were some fun times this year as well. We took a trip to Chicago for a weekend, we went to a couple concerts (haven't done that for a while) and had a good mini trip with the kids to the beach.
Over all a good year with more ups than downs. Tune in tomorrow for some looking forward at what might be in store for this new year.
It is a new year though now so I thought what better time than now to get back into the swing of things. This is the time of year where people tend to both reflect on the past and dream of the future. I am not immune to these musings myself. I have been doing some reflecting on this last year and I assume that like everyone else, there were some tough times and some good times. I had a few pretty rough patches and issues that I worked through emotionally this year. Some really good progress was made but a lot of it came at a cost. One of the most difficult things I did this year was actually writing a letter of forgiveness to someone that had hurt me. The letter was received.... alright. There really wasn't much that came from them after receiving it but I was surprised at the results I saw in my own life just from the act of writing, releasing and sending it. It has made a big difference in my confidence with myself and my esteem. I also feel less angry and resentful, not only towards that person but in general. I would encourage you to maybe do the same in your own life. If there is someone that has hurt you and the damage cause by that is holding you back all that keeping that anger inside is doing is keeping you from reaching your full potential. Staying angry with them will only allow them to continue to hurt you and give them power over you. That was one big thing that happened with me emotionally.
Physically there was changes with me as well. I had 2 surgeries this year. The first was the breast reduction. That made a big difference in my posture, confidence and pain level. It was difficult as well but very much worth it. Even though it's been less than a year since I had it done it feels like this is always who I was meant to be. I feel far more comfortable in my own skin than I ever did before.
The second surgery was a septoplasty. That was done to straighten the wall between my sinuses to allow better air flow. Though I am still healing from that one and I have also been sick (stuffed up) I have noticed a big difference in the amount of air that can pass through my nose. This should make a big difference with my snoring and I am hopeful that I will be able to breath better at night and consequently sleep better. That will still remain to be seen. The surgery was more difficult and painful than I expected. With going through the reduction first I sort of expected this surgery to be a breeze and I think that set me up for disappointment. The packing was rather large and needed to stay in for 48 hours. That made it impossible for my sinuses to drain anywhere but out my eyes and down my throat. This made me physically ill....a lot and also caused my eyes to weep constantly. It was difficult to even keep them open. Hopefully down the road I will look back on it and say it was worth it but right now I feel it's still too fresh to really understand how it will effect my life.
There were some fun times this year as well. We took a trip to Chicago for a weekend, we went to a couple concerts (haven't done that for a while) and had a good mini trip with the kids to the beach.
Over all a good year with more ups than downs. Tune in tomorrow for some looking forward at what might be in store for this new year.
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