The Perfect Drug
Surgery does mean pain of recovery so along with the gauze and handy dandy curved throw up container they discharged me with I also received a prescription. I'm not really one to take many medications. Usually when I go to the Dr. he looks for drug free options for me. This is not because I have a dislike of drugs or that I think there is anything wrong with taking them. It's just that they don't really seem to work that well for me. I don't tend to have the same results as other people do. This might be a intrinsic value given to my by the genes of my mother who can take insanely strong migraine medication to almost no effect but it got me thinking about the chemical differences between one person and the next.
I have been pretty sure for quite a while now that other people must feel a lot different than I do from taking drugs or even from drinking and smoking. When I looked up the side effects of the drugs I was given for my recovery there was warnings at every turn. "This is a highly addictive drug!" "Take it once and you will be addicted for life." "Be very careful when taking this drug." This got me thinking about addiction and why people would suffer so much in the thralls of drugs and alcohol. I know for myself this has never been a concern but also, I don't think that drugs and alcohol make me feel that good. Other people MUST experience them in a far different manner. I can't see people scrounging every cent, living on the street, craving with every fiber of their being just one more hit of something that sort of gives them a mild head rush. Yep, that's been my big high from the "hillbilly heroin" they prescribed to me. Then when I think of drinking I am pretty sure that there would be less alcoholics in the world if their binge went straight from I feel a little light headed and sort of nice to I feel insanely ill and just want to throw up. I have never experience the sort of euphoric high that washed away and pain and discomfort from my world. If drugs made me feel like everything was perfect and wonderful then it would maybe be a different story. That is what I believe some people do feel and experience from drugs and alcohol and I can totally understand why they would search for that continuously. The unfortunate part is that the bad feelings come back and the pain they are escaping is still there when they come down. They will never be able to wash that away or stay high enough that it no longer matters. I have heard that the first high people have from a drug is the best and they are never able to achieve the same results again but spend their life searching for that feeling again.
I don't know that I will ever be able to be as empathetic as someone who has a different reaction to drugs but I can understand the striving for euphoria. I can see how alluring the release from pain and sadness could be. I also wonder if there is just something fundamentally chemical in people that makes them more apt to become addicted. I believe so. This could be the same reason that medications will cure one person but leave another still stricken. If it is in part a chemical problem then maybe there could be a chemical answer. Sometimes they say you need to fight fire with fire so maybe there is a time to fight chemical dependance with a different sort of chemical.
Just something to think about.
I have been pretty sure for quite a while now that other people must feel a lot different than I do from taking drugs or even from drinking and smoking. When I looked up the side effects of the drugs I was given for my recovery there was warnings at every turn. "This is a highly addictive drug!" "Take it once and you will be addicted for life." "Be very careful when taking this drug." This got me thinking about addiction and why people would suffer so much in the thralls of drugs and alcohol. I know for myself this has never been a concern but also, I don't think that drugs and alcohol make me feel that good. Other people MUST experience them in a far different manner. I can't see people scrounging every cent, living on the street, craving with every fiber of their being just one more hit of something that sort of gives them a mild head rush. Yep, that's been my big high from the "hillbilly heroin" they prescribed to me. Then when I think of drinking I am pretty sure that there would be less alcoholics in the world if their binge went straight from I feel a little light headed and sort of nice to I feel insanely ill and just want to throw up. I have never experience the sort of euphoric high that washed away and pain and discomfort from my world. If drugs made me feel like everything was perfect and wonderful then it would maybe be a different story. That is what I believe some people do feel and experience from drugs and alcohol and I can totally understand why they would search for that continuously. The unfortunate part is that the bad feelings come back and the pain they are escaping is still there when they come down. They will never be able to wash that away or stay high enough that it no longer matters. I have heard that the first high people have from a drug is the best and they are never able to achieve the same results again but spend their life searching for that feeling again.
I don't know that I will ever be able to be as empathetic as someone who has a different reaction to drugs but I can understand the striving for euphoria. I can see how alluring the release from pain and sadness could be. I also wonder if there is just something fundamentally chemical in people that makes them more apt to become addicted. I believe so. This could be the same reason that medications will cure one person but leave another still stricken. If it is in part a chemical problem then maybe there could be a chemical answer. Sometimes they say you need to fight fire with fire so maybe there is a time to fight chemical dependance with a different sort of chemical.
Just something to think about.
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