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I've been thinking about this for a little while and wondering if I should post about this or not. I have doing my best to just get over it and let things go that can not be changed now but that is something that is very unnatural for me. I have a lot of trouble letting hurts go and I know that I'm not the only one with this problem. The issue I'm having is I keep getting reminded very regularly of the situations that hurt me. Then once I am reminded of what has happened I can't help but think of how different things would be for me right now if they didn't happen. The other issue I have had with this is it's causing me to doubt myself in so many ways. It casts doubt on my relationships, skills, and mostly I feel it shattering my very new found confidence. I'm not really sure of how I can protect my fragile esteem and still walk confidently forward when I am being regularly reminded of my failures. I know full well that nothing in life comes easily a...

Just like that, Christmas is around the corner. I'm feeling that this year people are more in the mood for Christmas than other years. The decorations seem to be going up earlier, the music is already playing, the kids Christmas movies are in rotation and the gift lists are growing daily. That's the part that has me concerned. It seems that Trinity has reached the age of the I wants. Every thing she sees she says, "I'm getting that for Christmas." She's jumped right past I'm asking for ______ and is making the assumption that any thing she wants she WILL be getting. It's strange for me to think of how it go to this point with her. We have never just given her anything she has wanted. In fact, there was a time she thought we were going to loose our house because we kept telling her we didn't have money for this, that and the other thing. Since she knew that the house we now live in was repossessed before she figured if we didn't have a...

I have heard so many times growing up that when God closes a door, He opens a window. This has been a sort of process I have used to try and discern what it is I should be doing with my life. There have been a few situations where I haven't known what would be my best choice of action so I have let this be my guide. For example, when I applied to Conestoga for Radio and Television broadcasting I wasn't sure if it was what I should be doing. I decided that if I was accepted into the program (over 1,000 applications for 20 slots) then I would know it was for me. Completing that program did not lead to a career in that field it did lead me to finding my husband so it did lead to my Homemaker career. There have been quite a number of times that I have let this sort of maze of closed doors direct my path but I have now reached a point where I have started to wonder if this has also lead to me giving up on opportunities to quickly. There are times when I have ventured down a p...

I picked up the Oprah Magazine the other day. I don't often buy magazines. For the most part I find them a huge waist of money since they're overpriced and the promises touted on the cover are not usually met by the articles. Most of the time I see a story that interests me and once I get it home and read it I end up disappointed by the lack of insight offered withing the overly processed model strewn pages. I haven't made it through all the pages yet but so far I have really enjoyed this issue. I mean, they even complimented my taste in the excellent paint colour choice I made for our living room wall. All joking aside though the articles have so far been enlightening and informative. One article I found especially interesting was one on Burnout. Though this isn't something that I am experiencing right now I could recognizes the helpfulness of the steps they gave for coming back from the brink. I know that in this day in age there are a lot of people out there...

Oh, for the years in our 20's when gaining an hour with daylight savings time was bliss and we used that time to squeeze in an extra hour of something interesting and adventurous. There was nothing better than knowing that it was time to "fall back", those extra minutes a little blessing we looked forward to every year. I remember the first daylight savings time after we had our daughter. I still was under the mistaken impression that it would be a wonderful time of blessed extra sleep. Little did I know how that one time blessing had turned into a curse. Instead of gaining a hour, once you have kids, you actually seem to loose even more time. "How can this be possible?" You think as you open your eyes at 6am instead of the 7:30 or 8 o'clock you were expecting. You even thought ahead! You kept that little one up for an extra hour the night before so they definitely did not get the same number of hours they are used to and you spent and extra hour t...

There is nothing like a trip to a plastic surgeon to make you feel like you should NOT be satisfied with how you look! Today was my appointment to see if it would be possible to get a breast reduction covered by OHIP . It was a disturbing visit. The Doctor asks you all sorts of questions and makes lots of recommendations to let you know how far from ideal you body looks. After asking me how tall I am and how much I weigh he asked one of my favorite questions of the session. "So what is your goal weight?" So much is implied by this question. The first thing I though was that in his opinion the weight I am now could not possibly be the weight I want to be. When I stated that I'm pretty close to how I would like to be the look of surprise and disbelief showed me that he could not possibly understand why I wouldn't want to be thinner than that. I told him at most I thought I could loose another 10 lbs or so and his reply was if I would like to loose 20 then I sho...