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A few days ago I went to the Dr. for a physical. Many of you will be shocked to hear that I think I've only ever had one other physical in my life! I suppose that now is the time when I should be getting more vigilant about these things but I have, until now enjoyed pretty good health. In fact I have a pretty good life. I have realized that all the blogging I did during lent might have given people the impression that I'm a sort of depressed and negative person. That really isn't the case. I do try to look on the bright side and I am immensely blessed in my life. It's just that I have always worked threw negative thoughts and feelings threw writing. This actually led my high school English teacher to ask me if I was suicidal. Then at other times he accused me completely unfairly of plagiarism. This may not be the best way to approach someone that you think could be unstable but that is another story. So today I just wanted to encourage people to look at thei...

It's been a little while since I've posted a message. I think now that Lent is over I'm not quite as focused on the issues of self esteem and haven't felt the urgency of writing. However, that does not mean that the work isn't continuing. I've spoken to a few people about the benefits of counseling lately and it's reminded me of my experiences with it. The first time I saw a counselor was in high school. Surprise, surprise, I had issues with my self esteem. Though I did find it helpful I'm not really sure of the quality of the therapist I was going to. Case and point, I still have a lot of issues today. It did assist me in recognizing some points about myself however. It turns out I am a fixer. If someone comes to me with a problem it drives me crazy if I can't do anything to help. It also is quite frustrating for me when I see people fight. For example, if there was ever a fight in my family I would try and interject, even if it had nothi...

Last night I got a text from my husband that said "I forgot to tell you. Trinity asked 'If God made everything why didn't he give everyone a home and nice things?' I was not really sure how to answer that question." Well, of course you don't know how to answer that. Adults have been struggling with this question for quite some time and sometimes they aren't comfortable with the answers they are given by "professionals". I was shocked that such a big question could come out of our little girl (she will be 5 tomorrow actually). I thought that I would at least have another year or so before she would start asking zingers like this. It seems that she might have been picking up on some of the religious conversations happening around the house. With all the soul searching I have been doing and the discussions my husband and I have had over the book "Love Wins" by Rob Bell there have been some interesting topics coming up. Sometimes t...

This Easter was an interesting one for me. I found my Lenten season a fantastic lead up to the date but once Good Friday and Easter Sunday actually arrived it ended up being not as touching as I had hoped. That is not to say that I didn't have a great visit with family but I do so love my church family and I find it sad that whenever there is an extremely important holiday we have to choose between being with my family or attending our church. Since family tends to take precedence we spend important holidays at my parents church instead and I don't find the speaking as engaging or illuminating as it is at Elevation. This Easter we had another issue. The kids and I got sick. Alex seemed fine but threw up on Friday night. Saturday everyone seemed fine and Easter Sunday started out well but during the service Trinity fell asleep and she wanted to head home as soon as things ended. I wasn't feeling well myself and the two of us spent a while in the afternoon sleeping un...

Easter has now come and gone and brought with it the end of lent. Now the question remains, will I be able to keep up my efforts to maintain a better self image? It has been interesting for me to see the number of areas of my life that self esteem problems can rear it's ugly head. It's been interesting for me to see how I have allowed my poor view of myself to affect my reaching out to others, communication, parenting, marriage and spiritual life. Bringing myself down has in fact been an insult to those around me that love me for who I am and the God that created me. It says to them that they have poor taste and judgment for loving someone so flawed. I will attempt to cease my insults to myself, therefor them. This season of lent I have also realized that my "recovery" has also somewhat mirrored the 12 step program followed by many addicts. Though there doesn't seem to be any benefits to poor self esteem (at least I don't think you get a "high...

I did something yesterday that was not my best decision when trying to give up negative self talk for Lent. I bought a fashion magazine. The draw was that with selling jewelry right now I wanted to take a close look at the fashion trends and different looks. Also I thought that the fashion to flatter every figure might be helpful. Neither reason was justified. First the trends are pretty much crap. I don't think there is much in the horizontal stripes, large billowy cloths and bubble pants that anyone will find flattering. Also, flat menswear inspired shoes? I'll just say yuck! There is something to be said for the 70s inspired trend since I have always prefured wide leg trousers to last years super skinny jeans. Don't even get me started on jeggings . There is also a small trend towards rock, punk and biker wear. That is something I can sink my teeth into! I'll have to hold on to that one and run with it. I have yet to determine if the article about models...

For a few days at least the weather was seeming really nice and I was feeling so upbeat and energetic! We were planning to have our roof done this last weekend however so I'm sorry to say the terrible weather is our fault. It's supposed to be cold and/or rainy all this week so our roof plans are on hold for another week, not to mention the weather is bringing me down. It's hard to get a taste of spring and then be trust back into the dreary, sodden, cold of a long winter. It's increased the thought in me about the circle of life and how plants need to die in the winter in order to create new life in the spring. It's really related to my thinking about Lent and how there are some negative and harmful thoughts and attitudes I have that really need to die so that a new healthy attitude can begin to take root. I've also been paying close attention to my "pruning" lately. As a doubtful or detrimental thought creeps into my brain I've been attempt...